Monday, March 06, 2006

Me myself and I

So Im back again after 4 months in oblivion just I feel that I have time.Yesterday one of cousins of mine told that even if you wrote once in months this creativity is worth appreciating . Well I don’t know vat he meant by that , writing blogs are by no means a creative work I just sit n write down vat I think is happening around me and is important enough to be inked . Its quite surprising that inspite of literally not doing any work I don’t have any time for blogging. But I have time for things that are of no use to me . I don’t know how are days passing by , the hours keep on ticking . At this age it is normally said that ur at the peak of ur productivity and and if its true then I know Im not getting any advantage out of it . Atleast I should addon/learn one thing daily in my armoury of intelligence but unfortunately I don’t do that either . Today I seemed to realize that in addition to becoming lethargic n lazy I have become a pessimist and keep on talking about all the bad things as my recent posts suggests. I like talking bout all that is not well but I have seen people who have even less than me and still they think them to be the kings of world . I must try tobe positive and think bout the things that I have rather than thinking bout the things I don’t . I have become too materialistic and don’t even know where Im heading after college . I think I need some counseling but whos here to counsel me , there are only my hostel mates who are in need of counseling even more than I do. I think I ll stop right here otherwise I ll realize where Im heading . I think that I have changed from a utter optimist to a a cynic , I ll not write further even if I want to , I want to be in ignorance as it is a bliss . thanks for being a part of this and reading all this crap if u reach till here….

Happiness and satisfaction is the want of everybody’s life and so is mine this is vat makes me go on…thankyou for being a part of my dis-satisfaction but I assure that I ll return with something nice and refreshing soon…..

Wait for that…

Throwing brilliance into dustbin

Being a little less than 3 years in a place which in the books of Indian government is the “premier institute of information technology” but to the ones studying here is nothing more than a place which offers you a 5 years holiday but that holiday only recently has become a nightmare. Aamir Khan affirmed in his recently released film “Rang de Basanti” that inside the college gates u control ur life but outside it in this wicked world it controls you”. This seems true if u are in a college but not in XYZ college. When we joined here the realization came quite early that this place doesn’t even fit the definition of a college. No faculty which in turn mean no classes and whatever classes one has here are from the visiting faculty whose only interest to come here is to earn easy bucks when others are enjoying there weekends. So ironic is that some of my batch-mates are even thinking becoming visiting faculty of this self proclaimed “IIT plus IIM” when they passout. Some the teachers that come to enlighten us on weekends don’t even sit in the class for the time they are stipulated to , as and when they get their cheques they say thankyou , god know to the cashier or to us and make a move . Moreover our seniors had put in our minds that as you have made to XYZ college you are the cream of India. They ultimately led us to believe we are above the Indian educational system and one has to follow American education model to succeed in this modern world that calls for innovation , creativity rather than following the bookish laws . So whatever minimal lessons we were taught unfortunately we didn’t even read them and thought that reading from outside the curriculum wud benefit us more. And when , by the grace of god someone comes to take a class and teaches the basic fundamentals , no one goes to class as we think know the basics , and if he teaches something that calls for some attention ( means something difficult ) still no one goes as nobody can understand the hell out of it. The only thing that makes us go to the class is the marks on attendance but after 5 semesters ur CGPA ll not change drastically so 10-20 marks here and there don’t count that much , the result “we don’t go to class” . Until recently the only thing which we could boast of was our hostel which provided us single room accommodation right from day one and not to mention the 24 hour electricity supply . But in the early part of this year we were made to follow the 3-4 rule which puts 4 students in three rooms so as to accommodate the increase in the students . The students adjusted to this and also got their own internet connections after a long wait and also setup a LAN which connects almost the whole IPG and all was going well atleast in the hostel, but frequent power cuts and the recent shortage of water and has made even the stay in the hostel a horror. Moreover all the hype regarding the installation of the RO (reverse osmosis )plant has died down and theres not even pure water for us to drink one has to stand for atleast 20 minutes to fill a one liter bottle and only the almighty knows that it is drinkable or not.

Its not the college’s fault completely , the thing now is that we also don’t want to study . After nearly three years of no regular classes , assignments and lack of focus we have lost the will to learn. The only thing which is in our favour is that we came through an All India entrance examination and the recruiters know that inspite of five years here , we still have something left in us which can be of help to them.

But it’s the college fault more than it is ours , atleast in my books and this place is surely throwing intelligence and brilliance in the dustbin or in computer jargon I think it has been moved to recycle bin unless someone restores it , it ll be deleted forever.

* name of college not disclosed not disclosed